Variations on a Theme
Nothing changes. We just seem to have things go around in circles, over and over...or at least I do. Last night I reinjured my calf worse than before. It all started last Tuesday with a minor tweak that faded by Sunday, only to be reignited then faded again until last night. Half a mile in, it went, it went harder than it has since this whole injury mess started 8 years ago pre Cayuga 50. I haven't been right for extended periods of time since. Physically or mentally it has been pretty much one thing after another, and now this, again. Suffice it to say, that all activity has once again come to a complete stop.
Mentally I'm thrashed right now, I need a therapist, but can't afford one, can't run it out, or bike it out, I can barely walk. I'm a mess. So If you don't see me for a while, this is why. It's not that I don't care, its just hard to be around others when I'm carrying both physical and mental pain at the moment. Frustrated that at 44 years old, I've been an on-again/off-again broken mess for 8 years